The thing is no one will understand how it feels like until they go through it. They’ll think you’re rude or cocky for coming up with excuses to avoid social gatherings and that is understandable I supposed, most people are inclined to have the worst opinions about someone. Thankfully, being who I am, I don’t mind at all. I am neutral. I have noticed that those who are depressed or those who suffer from anxiety disorders tend to be more understanding and more empathetic than those who don’t. I guess that’s because we know how messed up a person can be from personal experience.
The usual misconception about depression is that people think you are just sad. And because of that, they think you can just snap out of it. Well, wouldn’t it be fantastic if it was just that? They think you need advices about being happy and getting over it. And how you are not alone. They say things they think you’ve never thought about when you’ve probably thought about it more often than they do and that’s just incredibly vexing. Depression and sadness are two different things. Sure, sometimes I feel sad. But I am not just sad all the time. Sometimes I get too agitated and angry I want to throw things around, sometimes too sad my heavy heart breaks and I cry until the heavy feeling in my guts disappear. But most days, I am numb.
Think of it this way, you need to have a reason to be sad and because of that you can get over it in time. But what if you don’t and yet you feel that way? Every single day. Well, there isn’t a sole reason behind my depression. I could only hope that once I sought for help, I’ll feel better the moment I learn the reason behind it. Unlike sadness, depression stays with you and no amount of time will fix it. It’s like your shadow, you might not see it all the time but that doesn’t mean it’s not around.
Think of it this way, you need to have a reason to be sad and because of that you can get over it in time. But what if you don’t and yet you feel that way? Every single day. Well, there isn’t a sole reason behind my depression. I could only hope that once I sought for help, I’ll feel better the moment I learn the reason behind it. Unlike sadness, depression stays with you and no amount of time will fix it. It’s like your shadow, you might not see it all the time but that doesn’t mean it’s not around.